Time does fly but does not heal anything. 104 weeks , 24 months, 2 years have flown by with 2 summers,2 winters, 2 monsoons . We still miss you . There were times when I detested you. There were times when you used to be a real pain. But you have left us with the most painful of all times. I do not want to get over it. I have been fooling myself, believing it did not happen. But happened, it did indeed and little do I know how to handle this. I remember the times we used to fight over the Saturday’s Young World and the Kumudam on Fridays, today I get them no more coz you are not there to compete . The times we sat down for homework, the times papa used to throw your homework coz of ur bad handwriting , I hope you understand why he did that. I remember the times you held my hand while crossing the road back from school and the times you dodged me cos it was too embarrassing for you in front of ur friends . We have argued a million times about a million things… and we have plotted together, against each other, but stood by when caught… I have never admitted how proud I am of you, cos I left it for tomorrow; little did I realize that tomorrow would never come. You had so many promises to keep; you had so many miles to cross, why did you decide to sleep so soon?

Dad is so lost without you, Come and paint that smile back on his face….!!!

Mom is waiting to hear you call her aana- kutti… But you know what, now you don’t have a reason to call her that!!!

I cannot carry over your responsibilities alone…. Come back and perform your duties….!!

Paatti hasn’t stopped her tears even for a moment …

Shivani is now 5 years and is speaking so much that you would definitely hurt laughing…

Why did you think you’ve had enough…? Why did you have to go now?

And yea I know that you loved that girl a lot… you never gave her a chance to say that she loved you too…!!

I did take your friends out for dinner @ Vijay park like you’d asked me to….
We missed you a lot on that day…..

I hate myself for letting you go without letting you know how much you meant to us. Come back to us and give us that chance …

All along we thought you were an introvert n you wud remain a recluse… Did you know how many people came to see you off on your final journey ?

We still have unfinished arguments and I still haven’t done talking…!!!

Did we not decide we would play fair, why did you leave midway when the game is not even half way through?

I promise I won’t cheat any more, please do come back to us. I owe you that 500 bucks, which you lent me still, and a lot more that I borrowed without your permission.

Any time you saw yourself at the losing end of an argument, your Brahma-asthra was to make me cry with your snide remarks. I stand today with unshed tears welled up, don’t you understand? I give up, you win… Come back to celebrate your victory…

To you, my brother, my critic, my friend ; we love you loads and are waiting for you !

I . B .M ( like you always wanted to be addressed……)
Thottram : 24th June 1984
Maraivu : 13th July 2003

PS: Be safe wherever you are , Coz you need to come back to us to be with us for eternity !